Kiu, don't try to look for me.
You're a car. I'm a bike. You deserve a much better girlfriend.
I'm in so much pain without you.
I said something wrong to Silly Chu. She committed suicide because of me.
I beg you please. Say you love me.
Man Sheung-shing, you shot my leg. I'm limping because of you.
You're really pathetic. You can only play petty tricks here.
Man Sir...Man Sir...Calling Control.
I suspect someone's injured in the interview room.
Come over with the spare key right away.
What's the matter?
Man Sir's inside. Open the door.
Man Sir.
What did the doctor say?
How did the surgery go?
It was very successful.
The doctor said he's lucky he was taken to hospital in time.
Brother Shing.
Don't move.
You want water?
Ka-ka...She didn't go to work.
I know. I was working in Lo Wu yesterday.
Madam Tai said she got Ka-ka's message when she got off work.
She said Ka-ka had just taken sick leave because she wasn't feeling well. Don't worry
Call her...
Take care of your injury first.
That's right.
I called her just now to ask her to come to the hospital.
But she's turned off her phone.
But she did send me a message earlier to tell me she's fine.
She told us not to worry about her.
Don't call me. Let me get some rest.
I'm worried about her. Let me call her.
OK. I'll call her for you.
Your call cannot be connected right now. Please call again later.
She's had a lot to deal with lately.
Get some rest. Call her when you're better.
When I was cold, I put newspapers inside my clothes to keep myself warm.
When I was hungry I would go through the trash bins.
One time, I put different foods together and got a mixed grill lunch box.
I was really clever.
From the time you put your hand in my mouth to save my life,
I had already started to like you a bit. I always think of you.
I broke up with my boyfriend partly because of you.
I don't know what's happened to you. But I'm sure something's wrong.
You can't tell me about it?
I've made an irreparable mistake.
How come? At worst, it's like me. I made a mistake and went to jail.
It's a kind of compensation.
If I could compensate for my mistake,
I'd be willing to spend the rest of my life in jail.
If I can use a life to save another life, I'd rather die.
What? Forget about what happened.
You must remember that you're not the most miserable person.
A lot of people are more miserable than you. Me, him, them. We're all hanging in there.
We still live our lives. Don't ever say you want to die.
You need to line up even if you want to apply for public housing.
You don't want to line up to die?
Hey, I'm leaving. Don't tell Q that you saw me here.
There are many difficult moments in a person's life.
Everyone has to rely on herself to survive those moments.
You said before that to a certain extent, were the same.
Think of it this way. You think you're alone in your struggles.
Actually you're not the only person who's struggling.
There's me, him, her and them. We're all struggling on our own.
Think of it as a collective loneliness. Then you're not lonely anymore.
Hey, I don't know what I'm talking about.
Look. I'm going. Don't try and jump the queue.
Otherwise the King of Hell will never let you get reincarnated.
You'll be doomed then. Bye.
Looking for this person.
Yung Sir, give me a moment. I'll get you his report.
Thank you.
An 8-year-old boy is suspected
to have used a mop handle to kill his 2-year-old sister.
The police classified it as a suspected murder case.
The crime scene is still cordoned off.
Those two kids are Ho Pak-wan's grandchildren.
The lifer Ho Pak-wan?
That's why he's really emotional now.
He tried to commit suicide. He won't talk. He just wants to see a welfare officer.
Ho Pak-wan, this is Yung Sir. How are you? What can I do for you?
Let me die...
Calm down. Let's talk.
There's nothing to talk about.
That darn god. Bad guy. Loser. I curse your ancestors.
Why won't you let me die? Go ahead and kill me with lightning. Why?
Don't get so emotional. This won't help.
It won't. Of course it won't. This is karma for me.
Why don't you punish me? Why punish my grandchildren?
I'm a sinner. It's not enough to sentence me to life imprisonment.
Sentence me to death. Let God kill me. Let me die. Please let me die...
Ho Pak-wan, calm down.
Let me die...Let me die...
Why did you get into a fight? This will affect the judge's impression of you.
What impression will he get? Just a bad impression.
My lawyer said there's no defense.
I didn’t know until now that
it's an offence to have sex with a 13-year-old girl.
Even though the girl's not pressing charges against me,
the government will.
Even if you're sentenced to jail, you still can't give up.
Do you remember when you were in Cape Collinson,
you kept advancing so you got an early release?
Why did I work so hard to get an early release?
Why did I do so well? I'm so stupid.
The shrink said I took pictures up women's skirts
to get my parents' attention.
But at most, they'll just cast me a glance. Then they'll start yelling me.
Nothing will change.
What's your plan?
Give up on yourself to take revenge against them? It's not worth it.
That's all for the practice today.
Thank you, sir...Yung Sir.
You did the lion dance very well.
Of course. I practice all the time. Why do you look so sleepy?
I've been thinking about how to help someone.
You teach everyone the same way.
When I first came here, I was rebellious. I liked making trouble. But you tamed me.
Am I that powerful?
Honestly, apart from you, there's my grandma too.
She's in her 80's. She can’t walk well.
Every time she comes to visit me,
she has to leave Cheung Chau before daybreak. First she takes a ferry.
Then the MTR. Then a bus. Then a minibus. She has to endure the inclement weather too.
She can't see with her left eye. Her right eye is getting worse too.
If I don't behave myself so I can get out sooner,
I'm afraid she won't even be able to see me.
My mom died early. My dad's completely paralyzed.
Grandma raised me by herself.
I don't want her to worry or cry for me anymore.
I have to help her take care of my dad.
That means Ho Pak-wan's grandchildren were his significant figures.
They've ended up like this now. That's why Ho Pak-wan collapsed.
Jimmy's significant figures are his parents.
I want to talk to them and encourage them to write to Jimmy.
Whether it's an explanation or a confession of wrongdoing.
I hope Jimmy will grow up then.
It seems like Jimmy's case is easier to handle than your own case.
Hi.
Hi. What can I do for you?
You didn't answer my calls. I called your office.
Your colleagues said you would come back today.
So I came here to wait for you.
I'll go to the office first.
Wait. It won't take long. Do you know why I didn't answer your calls?
You want to avoid me. I know.
Because I don't know when you're telling the truth or lying.
I've met a lot of people.
But up to now, I still don't know what kind of person you are.
I don't know why you keep calling me either.
I've told you why. Kwong's here. You want me to repeat it?
I'm shy too.
Actually I don't know you that well. I don't know why you've fallen for me.
If your feelings towards me are a 10, mine for you is only 1.
At first my feelings for you were just a 5.
But after I became the manager of your dad's book,
my feelings for you became a 9.
The remaining 1 is to be discovered after we start.
Your dad often mentions you in his book. He says he's very proud of you.
He says you're a really tough guy.
When you were a little boy, you went riding with him.
You fell off the horse and got a dislocated joint.
But you didn't complain about the pain until your dad's meeting was over.
He also says you really care about people. You knew your mom loved roses.
One day, typhoon signal number eight was hoisted.
You wanted to protect the rose garden in the backyard.
You didn't sleep all night and sheltered the roses.
You were only six years old.
Your dad loves you very much.
Too bad there's such a great a misunderstanding between you two.
It's your dad's book launch this Saturday.
It's also the day that the charity fund's being launched.
He wants the most important person in his life to be there.
I must really congratulate my dad on getting the best PR in Hong Kong.
I don't believe you drank these cups of coffee for me.
Let me tell you, in correctional work, we often refer to someone's significant figure.
To help prisoners rehabilitate,
significant figures are very important to them.
It can be their parents, family or people they like or love most.
My significant figure was my dad. But I've never approved of what he does.
So now he's no longer a significant figure to me anymore.
Don, you may choose not to believe me.
But I drank these three cups of coffee partly for you.
Sorry. Let's end it here. I have my significant figure already...
Kwong's my girlfriend. Don't come and see me again, OK?
Kwong's not the type you like. I choose not to believe it.
I appreciate the female character more in the scene just now.
At least she's candid and courageous. You made me an extra without my consent.
I don't think you know how to respect other people.
I'm sorry.
Just now, if I upset you, I apologize.
Listen to me. I did that just now...actually...
I mean I'm not sure if I'm right.
I thought...How should I put it?
Actually, I discovered a while ago that you like me.
What are you talking about? Who likes you?
If you don't like me, why do you keep my stuff?
What are you talking about?
I'm really sorry.
Last time I was urgently looking for a document.
I saw your stuff by accident.
Hey, why did you go through my stuff?
Here. This pen is out of ink. I didn't want it anymore.
This cup is too worn. I didn't want that either.
This book. I don't want it.
The memos.
I thought you would throw them away after reading them.
This one says I have some egg tarts in the fridge.
I have to leave early. I can’t eat them. Then I told you to eat them.
This one says the phone on my desk was out of order.
I told you to get someone to fix it. And this one.
Last time after you had met Ho-yee's mom,
I comforted you and said
you mustn't shed tears but you can drink water.
Yes. I liked you. Originally, it was a 9. Then it dropped to 5. Then 3.
Now? It's zero now. I want to throw away all these things.
Can you tell me why?
There's no why.
Can you give me a reason then?
No reason.
When a woman changes her mind, even a bad mood can be the reason.
But I really want to know.
Look. If you don't want it to drop from zero to a negative number,
then don't ever mention this incident again.
This one looks better. This one looks clearer. Shall I replace it?
Q, if you were to rate your feelings for Ting Ho-ho on a scale of 1 to 10,
how would you rate them?
9.
Why isn't it a 10?
10 is the maximum.
Why would I go to the top right from the beginning?
I want to leave some room for myself to love her a bit more every day.
Hey, don't cut Ho-ho's head.
You scared me. OK.
What's the matter with you? Your job performance today is so poor.
Do you realize how conﬂicted I feel right now?
I know where Ting Ho-ho is. But I can't tell you.
I even have to help you look for her.
She wants to cut me off. I understand.
But that doesn't mean I have to give up my freedom to look for her.
You must not violate your professional ethics
just because you feel conﬂicted.
It's like a riddle. It's meaningless to tell me the answer. That wouldn't be fun.
I've decided.
This time I will use my own effort and sincerity to find her.
OK.
Hello. Speaking. I'm on my way. Thank you. Someone's found Ho-ho.
Really?
Hey, finish this for me please.
You still want me to carry on?
Of course. I'm afraid this is a false alarm.
I better have a plan B. Start working. Bye.
You see the convenience store across the street?
Just now I went in there to buy cigarettes. I saw this woman working there.
Are you sure it's her?
She's a mature woman.
I looked at her name tag. She's called Ting Ho-ho.
I'll go take a look.
If it's really her, I'll come back and pay you.
No way. You have to pay first. We've watched her for you for so long.
If you just leave, we'd look like idiots.
Let's be fair. I'll pay half first.
Deal.
Here's the balance.
So much? Does it include tips?
I've confirmed that the person inside is the woman I'm looking for.
But I still need a favor from you. There'll be a bonus, OK?
Please do me a favor.
Deal.
Thank you.
OK. It's Tender Feelings Behind Bars again.
Before I carry on reading the letters, there's a piece of special news.
I just received an old friend's song request.
Gingerbread Man called me just now.
I just received an old friend's song request.
Gingerbread Man called me just now.
Ho-ho, Gingerbread Man says he's been looking around for you.
He has lots of things to say to you.
He wants to tell you that on Christmas 2000,
you gave him a very important gift.
At the same time, he also left you with something very valuable.
He really wants to tell you that
when you were listening to this song four years ago,
he failed to ask you to stay.
If he could see you again, he would definitely ask you to stay.
He will be really good to you too.
A silly man is waiting for you outside.
Go. Come on.
Cold wind in my heart Blows away my dreams.
It's gone before it's over yet.
I feel so hurt inside. My heart is empty.
Ho-ho, please don't leave. I've been looking for you for a long time.
Where have you been?
14 years ago, you gave me a chance so I could start all over again.
14 years later, can you give me another chance?
I have nothing. I can't give you anything.
Having you with me is already the best thing
You won't be lucky with me.
I've been to jail. I'm barely educated. I'm a cripple. I have a son too.
Apart from those things, what else?
If you hadn't gone to jail, there wouldn't be the Ho-ho now.
If you didn't have a son, I wouldn't have had an excuse to help you.
If your foot was fine, I may not have been able to catch up with you today.
You're barely educated.
When do you want to study again? I can teach you.
I have so many shortcomings. Why are you still so good to me?
You wouldn't be you without those shortcomings.
Can you think of any other reasons to reject me?
Just now I heard on the radio that you left me something 14 years ago.
I want to know what it is.
It's my heart.
If you don't think it's too lame,
I want to tell you that 14 years ago, I had already left my heart with you.
But I didn't realize it back then.
Four years ago, I failed to notice again.
I missed the chance.
But today I won't miss this chance again.
I will make you stay.
I want you to live well for the rest of your life.
Ho-ho, don't run away from me anymore, OK?
I want to be discharged.
Man Sir.
Can you sit down please?
Let me leave. I'm fine now.
But the doctor hasn't approved it yet.
Sit down.
What's the matter?
The patient is very stubborn.
The doctor doesn't want him to be discharged yet.
But he insists on leaving.
It's OK. We'll talk to him. Thank you. Why are you being so impulsive?
This isn't your character. What's the matter?
I'm not impulsive. I'm fine now. Why won't they let me leave?
It's been a week already. I want to find Ka-ka.
Why won't you listen to us? I told you Ka-ka's returned Q's message.
Why are you still so worried?
You guys have underestimated Ka-ka's condition.
Even though she's returned his message, that doesn't mean she's fine.
My hunch tells me she's in big trouble.
You guys saw how she was that day. I've never seen her so down.
Besides, if Ka-ka should be held liable for that inmate's death,
I'm all the more liable.
If I hadn't told Ka-ka that day that I wanted to break up with her,
she wouldn't have been unhappy.
She wouldn't have said something inappropriate.
Man Sir, this isn't your fault.
Are you and Ka-ka being too harsh on yourselves?
A lot of people are irresponsible in this world.
The inmate killed herself because she felt no love.
She wanted Ka-ka's love but couldn't get it. So she killed herself.
That's true for her mentally retarded father and her helpless mother too.
They felt no love either.
A tragedy like that is caused by society, not you or Ka-ka.
OK. I agree with what you said.
But I don't have a problem now. Ka-ka does. She still can't let it go.
Do you understand that?
Hello, Q. What's up? Really? Q said Ting Ho-ho saw Ka-ka two days ago.
I saw her sitting on the street looking really down.
So it has to do with Silly Chu.
Kwong told me that Silly Chu used to live in Shumshuipo.
Maybe Ka-ka went there to look for her family
to apologize to them.
If she feels responsible for Silly Chu's death,
I'm worried that she wont be able to let it go like what happened to her before.
What happened before?
It's her secret. It wasn't her fault. But she thinks she did something wrong.
What happened to her, Ho-ho?
It's her secret.
Please tell me. It could help her.
If we don't find her, I'm worried that she might do something silly.
Her life is at stake. Tell me please.
She was sexually assaulted when she was a little girl.
Her parents took her for a carousel ride.
They fought fiercely because they wanted to get a divorce.
So Ka-ka left the playground by herself.
In the end, she's taken to a hillside by a stranger. Then...
What happened?
I didn't ask her for the details. But she wasn't raped.
She keeps blaming herself for this. This was a really cruel blow to her.
I don't think she'll ever forget this scar. She thought it was because she was naughty
that she was sexually assaulted. That's why her parents didn't want her.
Even now, she still thinks it was because she was naughty.
She left by herself that day. That's why she got sexually assaulted.
She feels so much shame. She's afraid to tell anyone about it.
She's especially afraid to tell her boyfriend.
This is such a severe blow to her.
She was abandoned by her parents. She got sexually assaulted too.
She was only eight years old back then.
Ka-ka, what are you doing?
Put newspaper inside and I'll feel warmer.
Silly Chu did this before.
Are you crazy?
What are you doing?
Don't do this anymore. You told people that you're fine?
I'm responsible for Silly Chu's death.
You told people that you're OK. You think this is OK?
I'm responsible.
What do you mean responsible?
You're not responsible for her death. Don't be so silly.
Why am I not responsible? Silly Chu died because of me.
The law won't find me guilty. Sol must punish myself.
Stop it please.
What are you doing? Leave me alone.
I'm taking you home right away. How can I leave you alone?
I have to take care of you from now on.
Do you know a couple of days ago, I was assaulted in Stanley? I almost died.
When I was fighting for my life, I only had you in my mind.
I realized that I can't live without you.
Come back to me please.
It's too late. What's been said can’t be taken back.
A dead person won't come back to life. Do you understand that?
What do you want to do so that you'll feel better?
Let me stay here. I'll feel better then.
Let me live the life Silly Chu used to live.
I'll feel better then.
Do you want to do this for the rest of your life?
I don't know.
At least let me find where Silly Chu watched the sunrise
so I can make her dream come true.
Man Sir.
Dr Poon.
Come in please. Are you better now?
I'm fine now. I can come back to work.
Chiu Chow Boy told the police that when he attacked you,
he had hallucinations.
He heard a voice telling him to kill you.
Now they're doing a checkup for him in Siu Lam.
There's another story that hasn't been verified yet.
Some inmates said Chiu Chow Boy took Yip Sai-heung's money.
In other words, Yip Sai-heung paid him to kill you.
That's not surprising at all. Yip Sai-heung's wanted me dead a while ago.
Let the police take care of this. I don't want to think so much about this.
Actually I came to see you because I want need your advice about something.
OK.
I have a friend.
She thinks she's made an irreparable mistake.
Now shes really depressed. She's even acting somewhat erratically.
As her friend, how can I help her?
This is a complicated psychological problem.
She needs an expert.
But she's your friend. You can try something simple.
Lots of people suggest this method.
That is, help her to accept it, face it, deal with it and let go of it.
Actually a lot of people don't realize they have psychological problems.
So they don't face it or deal with it. Gradually it get more serious.
Take Ho Wan for example.
When he was a kid, he was sexually assaulted and abused by his foster father.
This resulted in a very serious psychological trauma.
But he didn't deal with it properly.
When he grew up, he took it out on others. He even hurt other people.
The victim became the victimizer.
In fact this vicious cycle of a victim becoming a victimizer is common in society.
But some people are kind and strong.
Even though they've been hurt, they can still live positively.
These people won't hurt other people after they've been hurt themselves.
They'll just do something to hurt themselves.
I believe your friend is the latter.
Thank you very much Dr Poon for your valuable opinion.
You're welcome.
If you need anything, feel free to come to talk to me.
OK...What's this?
Ho Wan wrote this just now.
Apart from the three rape cases,
he's also sexually assaulted many other girls in the past 20 years.
He knows the names for some, but not others.
I want to give this to the Superintendent to see how we should handle this.
Hillside near Funland playground.
A little girl about seven or eight years old wearing a yellow ﬂoral skirt.
Ka-ka, whats the matter?
I've dated other men before. But I only trust you.
She feels so much shame. She's afraid to tell anyone about it.
She's especially afraid to tell her boyfriend.
I'm naughty. Dad and Mom don't want me.
Man Sir, are you OK?
Where's Ho Wan? I want to see him.
Ho Pak-wan, did you write this note? Is what you wrote here true?
I raped and killed three women.
But I wasn't sentenced to death since there's no death penalty in Hong Kong.
So I wrote down all the bad things I've done.
I want to tell everyone about it.
Why?
So that the people who hate me will kill me. The sooner the better.
Then my grandson can be saved.
I've hurt so many people before.
If the families of each of the girls came to give me a slap,
that would be enough to kill me.
I don't even mind if the other inmates beat me to death.
Think carefully.
By the hillside of Funland playground in 1994,
there was a little girl wearing a yellow ﬂoral skirt.
Did that really happen?
Hillside near Funland?
I definitely remember that because it was the first time I committed such an offence.
I didn't know why I did it.
But as soon as I saw that little girl, I really wanted to do it.
She said her parents didn't want her. She wanted to find her uncles.
I took her to the hillside.
That little girl had a round face and a pair of big eyes. She's OK...
Enough. Don't say anymore.
I don't want reincarnation. I don't want to live.
I want to end this once and for all. Beat me to death please. I deserve to die...
Sorry to keep you from going out, Ho-ho.
It's OK.
I know you came about Madam Yiu. I really care about her too.
I don't understand,
Ka-ka never told anyone about what happened to her.
Why did she choose to tell you?
As far as I know, you two don't know each other that well.
It was because I was really down on day. She wanted to encourage me.
She said she appeared fine on the outside, but she has a scar in her heart.
Also, my background is so bad.
She was sexually assaulted. She feels a lot of shame.
She thinks that people will look down on her
if she told them what happened.
But my backgrounds no better than hers.
I wouldn't look down on her even if she told me about it.
My parent were junkies.
We were so poor that we didn't even have food.
I couldn't afford my school uniform either. I felt a lot of shame before too.
I didn't dare tell anyone about it in case they laughed at me.
Then I lost my leg. I felt even more like trash
until one time when I tripped and fell hard on the ground.
I had to lie down to rest. I looked up at the ceiling,
and I figured it out.
Who says parents have to be more competent than their kids?
Even if they don't behave themselves, they don't owe you anything.
You don't need to hate them.
If the kids are smart, they can even help their parents.
This leg of mine is like my lousy parents. They can’t be salvaged.
If I just look at it, I'll have no hope. Thank God I still have another leg.
That means I still have strength. I can still walk and run.
There's still hope.
But Ka-ka is in a really bad state now. It's like she's lost both her legs.
She was abandoned by her parents and was sexually assaulted too.
That was like losing one leg.
She still had one good leg. I guess that was you.
You were there to support her.
But then you broke up with her. So she lost the other leg too.
That's why she collapsed.
Someone has to help her get up again and carry on walking.
It all depends on how you're going to support her now.
I found where Silly Chu went to see the sunrise.
Take me there right away then.
I can take you there.
But before I do that, I want you to go somewhere else with me first.
OK. We're here. Open your eyes.
Why did you bring me here?
You need to get back up where you fell.
If you want to get well, you must face it
until you're no longer scared of it and don't get dizzy anymore.
But the person I can't face now is Silly Chu.
Silly Chu is not your only wound.
There's also your parents and that bad guy who hurt you before. He's in jail now.
He's a lifer. He's lost his freedom.
But that still can't make up for the mistake he made back then.
Forget about who I am right now.
Whether it's Uncle Man or your boyfriend or anyone else.
If any of us knew you had been hurt before,
we would all just want to tear that beast apart.
If you think people see you differently because of what happened to you,
I can assure you that they're not looking down on you.
They just want to protect you, make it up to you and support you.
You've been mistaken all along. Getting hurt isn't a disgrace.
You're not the person who was wrong.
Come on. Get on. Be courageous. Sit.
When you sit on the wooden horse of a carousel,
you'll turn in circles and return to the original position.
You might think that you're back to square one.
All the bad things will come and haunt you again.
But that's not the case. You were blinded by grief all along.
You kept recalling the same view.
Actually everything outside keeps changing from one rotation to the next.
People keep walking forward and making progress.
Your parent made the mistake of abandoning you back then.
But are you sure your hatred of them hasn't exceeded the extent of their mistake?
Your feeling of guilt for Silly Chu has far exceeded what you did to her.
As for the harm Ho Wan did to you, you put the horse before the cart.
You've been blaming yourself, but it's actually Ho Wan who's to blame.
So don't make wrong judgments again. Don't punish yourself wrongfully.
Don't put yourself in an irreparable situation.
Try to forgive those who hurt you before. Be the happy girl you once were.
Congratulations. You've finally faced your past.
Actually this was never your mistake.
It's the people close to you, including me, who erred.
I promised you that
I would be a good driver and ensure the safety of my passenger.
I promised to protect you forever.
But I jumped out of the car midway and left the passenger behind.
I'm such a fool.
No wonder the passenger wouldn't tell me how she'd been hurt in the past.
I'm sorry. Ka-ka, will you please give me another chance to drive this car?
From now on, whether it's slopes, bends, cliffs, snow or hail,
Will never leave you behind again. I will drive this car forever until the end.